♐ The arrow shot my heart, but it was arrow of dead, not of love...♥

    Ouuu.. Hi guys! What a stupid week... The first week after the Christmas holidays, that means= a lot of exams.... F*ck! :) But the exams aren`t the only one problem of this week... But if I think about it, the end brought something positive... I`ve made a very good decision... I`m sure you are asking yourselves.. What the hell I`m talking about... If you want it to know, continue in reading, dudes... ;)

   OK... So... Let`s strat!
Maybe, you think that I`m in some kind of depresion... No, I`m not...
    Maybe, you think that I`m going to write here some emotional and epic words, full of my sadness... No, I`m not...
    Maybe, you think that I`m sad... No i`m not!
    Maybe, you think that all I`m going to write here are lies... If you think that, you are WRONG!!!

I just want to write here my feelings from this week... But this ideas are very special, because they are from my secret dictionary...It`s not diary, it`s just a dictionary, where I write ideas, which a I can`t tell anybody... But those aren`t very big secret... So i can write it here.. :)

9.1. 2012
 The first day of school... I just hoped, It will be the first day of a new beginning. But I was wrong... The reason of my bad feeling is HIM! I`m still hopeing, that he tells me something about the letter but it`s just like waiting on better times in my swimmimng group... Only thing I want from him is, to be just his friend...Because if he can`t be my boy from my dreams, I want be just his friend... I need him so much! This was only one day without him... He is something so special in my life, nobody and nothing can replace him... WHY? I don`t know... :)

   But during this week I have absolutely changed my opinion in him...And I`m happy that I`ve done it! Because how mu very good friend Micheska ♥: "Maybe you don`t know if he is good for you!" And she was right!

12.1.2012
  .THE END.  (unfortunately)
I have just ended... I have forgotten his name... I have forgotten his smiele... All my memories have dissapeared...Whole happiness has run away... I have no reason form smile... Actually, I feel likea book, which has suddenly ended and was put away... Nobody knows the end, neither the author do. Only a few of empty pages... The last dot after the last word ended this book... But the empty pages have something "written"on... They are all wet of tears... Each page has two tears from two eyes... This tears have they owner.. It`s a young, unsubstuntial girl, who has dream, which dissapear like the snow on a wet ground... First, it was wonderful, but then everything turned into something... INVISIBLE!         (Thank you)

   But, do you know what is funny? That I feel very good... I have no stress... Yes, I`m  really very big madman!

                                                                                                                              *Sjuz*